haiz.... sibei sianz now... ok... lets start wif e less annoying part. tis mr loh is new 2 our co. 2day juz his 2nd day. he keeps acting as though he's a veteran n ordering me 2 run errands for him. wtf. den tis customer wants discount n i sae no cannot liao rdy discounted, tis mr loh immediately sae can la can la foong u go ask mega. i pretended i din hear him n explain 2 e customer y cannot den he pat on my shoulder n sae can la juz go n ask 1st. fuck man. sibei tulan. wan ask dunno how 2 ask himself izit? 2 old 2 walk a distance? actualli i can gif a discount but cos he kept pestering n annoying me so i decided not 2. but in e end mega came in n still gaf a discount... ha wad can she do? customer n own staff askin her 2 gif discount, if i were her i oso will b pressurized wad. ok nvm abt tt. tt din realli bother me. now is e part tts so fucking annoying me. ha i din even noe i became an advisor instead of ic. tis is lyk 2 mths ago n no1 inform me. haha wad a joke wad a failure m i. juz sms mel n she told me ch is ic n oso ic of e drill com. 1 word, fuck. suan le dunno wad else 2 sae... its my last yr n thruout 7yrs in np, gettin e goh is my dream... mayb im juz lousy? lost all faith in myself mayb im juz... ha rubbish...? dun wanna do anyth rite now im feelin so sianz so sianz... wan blame onli got myself 2 blame.. got another issue but nvm abt tt. double combo landed on me wow feels great huh ha... now im tinkin abt e timesi had in np, those trainings, those fun, those bonds tt we had, basking in e sun, those punishments, those frenz whom i made, those silly yet funny moments... everyth is perfect... life's carefree... life's fun... yes, np rocks. still rem all my squadmates, my frenz... each n every1 of their character... it realli felt lyk a hm 2 me. mayb i shd not b influenced 2 come back as ci. if i had another chance i will choose not 2...lili wanna come back again b ho, 2 suppress sum1 n i told her "do u tink is worth it? if i were u i wun cos he's not worth it not even a worthy opponent. he claims 2 b headhunted, fine mayb its true but so wad he wun make it far he will onli expose his weakness. well u shd realli reconsider ur option.. if u haf e spare time den fine, if not dun.." yea... lili 1 of my pals in np... dere's tis gang of us at tt time... so happy, doin drills 2gather planning camps 2gather kanna scolded 2gather... yes we still keep in contact, every x'mas we will meet up n ton haha its true tt frenz in np r ur real frenz.... those days r gone n dere's no way we can put on our uniform n dril under e sun ever again... all becomes part of my memory... hahaz seems out of pt hmm... lost all fighting spirit... lost lost lost.... lost in myself. dere's no 2nd bez in my dictionary not bez den b e worst ha ha ha ha........