felt quite frustrated nowadays. been tinkin so much. well he did warn me before n hints were dropped all along juz tt i din realli wanna bother it. but now its comin to bother me. ya i shdnt b tinkin so much, white hair all comin out. always lookin so gloomy esp alone. of cos i noe e part of e purpose n reason, not a fool but juz chose to close one eye hoping that tings will not turn out as i tot but anyway it did la. mayb its not as bad, or it may seem so n i hope so.
havin frequent headaches n shoulder keeps hurtin. stress, worries, troubles. hmm shd go for a massage but dunno where to get one. frenz recommend ones r all sleezy type but wad i wan is real one lyk plaza sg tt shop.
dunno can hold on how much longer mite blow up any min.

ye xu wo mei na dao man fen, ai bu suan wan mei de ren, ke shi wo bi shui du ren zhen, nu li gan shang ni de biao zhun