wah sey long long time nv write anyth... mm... 2day not bad, went 2 suntec 2 get somth wif e discount coupons i got fr yoshinoya. den went 2 watch spiderman n tt movie is realli not bad... 4 those hu lyk action, tts 4 u man! haha ate twice at yoshinoya 2day... once b4 e show n another after tt lol dunno y suddenly felt tt e salmon quite nice 2 eat except tt e serving abit small... 4 pieces of salmon onli =( after dinner went 2 take mrt. ever experienced waiting 2 go up an escalator for abt 5mins? well e escalator at e bridge, towards cityhall interchange, is not working n ppl was servicing it n e surrounding was under construction so it was blocked n e onli way thru is via tt escalator... so we waited n dere's a v long queue, all waiting 2 go up hahaha din realise wan go up an escalator still muz wait lor... went 2 harbour front n had sum fun at e arcade b4 goin hm... i guess ill b so tired tt i will miss portugal vs holland lor... shd b an exciting match... haha 2 stay up 4 e czech vs denmark match, i had 2 make 6 reminders in my hp, starting from 2am all e way 2 230am, wif 5mins intervel n guess wad? all din manage 2 wake e up lor diao... -_-" but at 3am auto wake up heng sia... lol however onli watched 1st half... haha so hopefully 2nite i oso can wake up...

hmm...well abit sad... yday mel called n said lee told her we cant ord tis yr, cos short of manpower... haizzz sibei sianz... try as we might but still fruitless.. tink no choice gotta stay le... argh... more pain... more pain... n more pain... muz try 2 4get, see no evil n hear no evil, onli den i tink ill b abit happier ba... but can i stop tinkin... nah... bu ke neng... haiz... if lidat i tink ill use more work 2 ma zui ownself... since i hafta stay, i will fully utilise e remaining time i haf, devote myself 2 np n win e GOH. since i stay, i wan tt trophy! feelin so 'patriotic' now, even tot of wad 2 do n how 2 train... but... can i do all these freely?? or will i haf obstacles n restrictions?? well... i guess i will b restricted ba... even so, ill still do my bez 2 fight 4 wad i belif in... SM Lee said: "if u care abt wad ppl say or wad history will record u as, den u r not concentrating on ur job. if somth has 2 b done, juz do it n let ppl judge u later."

e furtherest distance is not life n death but when she's beside u but her heart is sumwhere else...
haiz... missed eng vs port match... its interesting lor so decided 2 watch france vs greece no matter wad... but den in e end so disappointing -_-" si bei sianz ar tt match... orbi france lose haha tml morning is holland vs sweden liao shd watch anot... hopefully wun b boring lor...
2day's np training kinda sianz... debrief e sec3 ncos... 2 full hours sia! den stupid mel go bang e stapler... diao... but i tink a bit of scolding will do e ncos gd lor... anyway quite disappointed 2... ncos cant even endure in front of cadets... physically cant but surely mentally can rite? in front of cadets dey shd feel more sey n able 2 endure betta wad... but no lor 3 ncos fall out, 0 sec2 n onli 1 sec1. hey come on wads tis?! ncos liao lor if lidat oso worse den cadets how 2 command respect? haiz... but den again i sure haf faith in em cos dey do produce miracles at times... juz needed 2 find a way 2 fully utilise their potential...

haf u ever faced a situation whereby dere somth 4 u 2 do n when u do it, u wun get any compliments or rewards but when u dun do it u will get snub at? hahaz... well i always do face it... when i take tt extra mile, ppl do not appreciate it nor show me extra care n concern n after awhile dey will totally 4get wad i did but if i do not take up e task, ppl when haf a bad impression of me n tt will last lyk 4eva... haz im not complaining abt whether i will get any compliments anot but juz cant stand when some others do not take tt extra mile, juz leave it as it is, dey still do get compliments n ppl care 4 em. even if dey dun take up e job, ppl still wun blame em... hahaz i guess tis is wad u call ren yuan ba... guess i simply lack it... gd lobang nv approaches me whereas bad lobang always do sianz... therefore fr now on whether ill take tt extra mile anot will depend on if tt extra mile is convenient for me, my mood n wad benefits ill haf instead of wad i did in e past, which is base on whether tt person will feel happy anot. do u experience when msging sum1 u lyk n he/she either do not reply or it is juz a 'QnA' session?? im sure many others do hahaz she will nv reply me promptly nor will she msg me on her own accord lolz... but she will do tt 2 him hmm... i guess its obvious rite? mm... im used 2 it anyway so not a big prob now
mm... nth much happen 2day except for goin back 2 sch for a showcase briefing. went late so after half hour go home liao... siao sia... waste my time haha mm 2day quite tiring oso la cant tink liao... goin fall aslp real soon...

haha 2day went back 2 nh 4 e markin of sana test papers lol down dere damn sianzzzzz man nearly fell aslp liao... but 2day is great anyway!!
startin fr sana... met faizal n his botak liao lol tml he goin 2 report 2 camp liao haha time flies sia... yrs ago we still training at atc 2gather n now he's goin army liao... next yr will b my turn haizzz sui yue bu liu ren...
mm... 2day happy cos eng made it into quater finals! tis means i can c em play liao wahaha e other ting is tt nhnp girls' revolver team made it into e finals! top 10 in sin sia! li hai li hai... i tink our sch for abt a decade nv made it into finals liao haha when lee told us tis news i was so damn happy LOL though it wasn't me who got into e finals but still felt so happy 4 nhnp hmm.... mayb tts e deep affection tt ive developed after being in tis unit for so many years? well anyway i tink nhnp got a new history now n its made by sec3 batch yr 2004 =)

din write posts 4 2 days liao haha not feelin well 4 e past 2 days.... feelin bit giddy lyk haf fever den feel lyk vomitting haha in short, juz not feelin well -_-" haha 2day felt betta liao lol but cant bliff spain tio knockout liao... sianz... oh ya my fren said im simply devil cos keep askin him 2 bet den all e teams i predicted 2 win 1 all lost n 1 draw lol so much bet more 2 recoup ur loses!! hahaha hmm... listen 2 7 flowers e song too young not bad sia v catchy =) lol had another testimonial in my friendster wahahaha i tink its pathetic sia anyhow click 1 person oso can find lotsa testi n frenz den i onli so few haha oso dun dare tell others i own 1 sia
hmm... tml muz go back sch mark papers wah sianz sia... stupid sana course... waste my precious time lol well got 2 noe fr mel tt lili is stayin for another yr or half heh heh tt means i can ord lor! finally sia... gotta tell lee abt tis so tt she will let me go hahahahaha =D

well 2day got er fu cos lenz juz sent me nearly a whole list of ocean's songs n i got shang xuan yue fr benedict. tt song realli nice. duno y every1s tokin abt tis new artiste. haha nv saw him b4.
listening 2 shang xuan yue now... dunno y suddenly tink of my life, fr birth til now... wad ive been living as... m i living 4 myself or 4 others??? i tink im more 2wards others... has always been so concerned abt how others will look at me... ha now tinkin back i look rather silly, y m i living sucha life?? its so tough n tiring... always tinkin will this action or tt action if done will dey b pleased anot haha i tink ive neglected alot of tings... i tink ive neglected my own feelings, feelings tt belong 2 me. will i b able 2 find back em? ill do tings tt i lyk n not tings tt pleases others onli beginning now. however, if sum actions done will make majority happy, y not?? ;)

onli when u felt sad b4 will u den b able 2 learn how happiness feels lyk
onli when u felt angry will u den b able 2 learn e virtue of forgive n forget
onli when u suffered will u den b able 2 learn 2 cherish
onli when uve seen e ugliest will u den b able 2 learn wads true beauty
treasure every moment n b truthful ;)

haha 2day's ps bd n i hafen burn e cd tt pearl instructed me 2! so in e morning i started burning it into an audio format so tt put inside discman oso can hear haha took quite a long time n wasted 3 cds cos an error wil occur halfway during processing. tot is sum technical fault so used another cd burn again... but stil failed den it shows tt after jolin's dao dai e process stopped so deleted m2m e song which was after dao dai started buring again in e next cd but still din work... tis time deleted jolin's dao dai n finally succeeded. next got another prob which is no cover 4 e cd.... so bo bian went 2 tiong bahru 2 buy but cant find empty cover leh... mayb i overlooked it but search here n dere oso no haf so in e end bought a new cd wif cover den rush 2 bugis 2 meet em. reach le den saw ps n hl standing dere den walk over haha damn paiseh cos dunno wad 2 sae so juz stood beside n pray tt cx n jl quickly come -_-" finally dey came n we went 2 buy e movie tic b4 goin 2 mac 4 a drink. haiyooo damn pathetic at mac... 3 guys gotta sit in a row n summore its so squeezy lor i suay sit most outside so always get 'butt' out haha jl seems 2 b goin well wif e conversation n surprising hl got respond lor! haha i tink if it was in e past she wud haf kept quiet n e most ans wif a smile hahaha not bad not bad n den since dere's still an hour left, we walked around bugis n hl wanted 2 buy a pair of sport shoes. i tot in e end nth will b bought but no leh she so shuang kuai c fit le den bought it haha noticed smoth interestin 2! 1 guy customer was oso choosing den hl was beside him n tis guy kept bio her haha even when he tokin 2 his fren his eyes oso on hl sia n den e salesman oso kept lookin at her wahahaha mei li wu fa dang lol den carried on walking n tis time i walked behind slowly, observing e people tt walked past us n i found tt most guys will bio at hl haha from my survey i conclude tt she's attractive. den b4 e show we went 2 toilet 1st n tt cx damn joker sia... we told him 2 hurry n he said he's sitting down waitin 4 tings 2 come out -_-" tot most ppl visit toilet is cos urgent but den he is.... haha dunno wad 2 sae sia.
its showtime n we entered e cinema. tt jl chose e inner most sit n hl took e outermost haiyo... jl ar u lidat how 2 succeed... wait 10 yrs oso no use ar... action bit mah... well e show was great =) i muz sae its e bez among e shows ive watched recently haha 2 thumbs up ;)
show's over n we dunno where 2 go so jl suggested we go bishan... hmm... bishan... wads e motive?? hehheh... so we set off 4 bishan. when we arrived, while we were walkin on e along e platform, dunno wad ps doin cos she actualli knocked against e wall haha not those heads on type juz shoulder knocked against. reached j8's doorstep n hl sae goin hm le den we hinted nid ppl acc anot n jl asked her nid him 2 pei her wait 4 bus? but she declined immediately... sianz sia... hl went liao n we kept suaning jl 4 not grabbing any opprtunities... well i mean he's not goin bishan (he lives in clementi n its quite a long ride) juz 2 haf dinner wif 3 of us rite? is hl he wanted c rite? alamak... muz jia you... even if e chances r slim it doesnt mean no chance mah...
we go inside j8 n cant e food junction den tis time finally jl got make use of e chance liao he called hl n asked where izit haha finally some improvements liao... well if u lyk a person alot, juz by hearing her voice u will feel contented le n im sure jl is pretty happy liao. we had dinner den went 2 browse ard in e cd shop. went home after tt. haha quite a tiring day though i kept quiet most of e time.
reached hm le den after awhile received ps msg 4 thanking e present. told her e cd was specially dedicated 2 her by pearl n each song is v meaningful 2 em haha but i tink i made a blunder... dunno y got 2 versions of truly madly deeply, 1 is halfway 1 is complete... den no dao dai n e day u went away. it wud haf been perfect if i had been more careful. she said e cd is so funny haha dunno wad she meant by funny but tink she'll lyk it.
pearl came back fr kuantan! haha listening 2 her describtion oso feel lyk goin dere liao... muz haf been so relaxing... eh... silly gal meant another person n of cos pearl's smarter den me =) din mean 2 blunder up tt cd complilation paiseh...
2day's great n hoping 4 a betta tml =)

wah.... tml ps bd n i hafen got anyth bo bian leh dunno wad 2 buy so decided 2 share wif cx haha well hl is also goin tml n so is jl~! hahaha tml got 'show' watch again lol however i tink e bez is 2 let tings go on its own course as forcing will sumtimes backfire... sumtimes cos of sum stupid tings being said, tings tt dun mean harm but juz tryin 2 make fun or 2 help 2 parties get 2gather, e 1st party mite get annoyed n mayb forever ignore e 2nd party haha therefore nth done at times will b beneficial instead ;) nth much happened 2day except silly gal is goin kuantan haha grab e chance 2 b wif him ba ;)

hmm....... wanted 2 buy ou de yang tt cd 4 xy bd but later got 2 noe she rdy dl abt 3-4 songs of tt album liao... sianz diao dunno wad 2 buy liao leh... haha asked her but she said no nid buy cos she oso din buy 4 me tis yr but anyway if dere r any gifts i tink is suitable ill get it haha come 2 tink of it sianz man cos i owe lots ppl bd present sia... sk la stel la n wy la wah sey realli no money liao sia hmm.... well ps bd oso coming up haha heng tis 1 can share ba so at least not so cham lol
well... 2day is quite fun plus tiring haha went 2 kbox wif benedict but den got slight flu so sing lyk no sing lidat haha n tt benedict sibei siao 1 sia go play ct girls songs but tts not all he ar still go play those songs tt r ages ago n i realli mean AGES ago lor -_-" wah liew bth anyway im no betta cos i always seem 2 get e lyrics wrong 4 every song n summore i cant get e cantonese songs correct haha after tt went 2 harbour front n play arcade lol finally broke 2 records!!! 1 is e shootin planes broke personal record by goin into stage 4 haha e other is tennis!!! wahahaha smash my way all e way 2 4th round n even nearly won! so shuang! esp when got ppl behind u watchin u play lol though i tink is purely luck but still find tt im pro at tt moment =P luv tt game!! challenged benedict n he won haha e main reason shd b cos moves r unpredictable ba well his is a human brain afterall, unlike com which r quite predictable... hmm... tis proves tt ren nao bi dian nao li hai haha
mm... pao ba nan ren final episode... miss e 1st 1/2hr... sianz sia... but find tt show quite nice lor... esp e sayin "Diligence pays, play doesn't" haha well tts all 4 2day n look 4 a betta tml =)

hahaha after readin kf blog den i noe i was sucha fool lol worried 4 nth sia -_-" sae wad she insignificant den tot she angry 4 not goin 2 e movies.... diao... after reading her blog den i noe she's actualli quite happy lor cos she has her kor 2 keep her co haha got a bei sua de gan jue lol den carried on readin n founnnd out somth haha actualli is long ago suspect le la but now quite confirm le la lol if u had a stead will u still sae tings lyk 'luv u' or other things tt r intimating 2 another guy?? haha i tink tts quite wrong lor... n i usualli dun tink highly of such persons i tink she says tis 2 more den 1 guy ba but anyway its her life n how she wanna live it is up 2 her le all e bez ;)
nth much happen 2day slack whole day hahaha tink tml oso slack liao la lol

looks n character, which is more important? if u've got looks but no character, ppl will still fall 4 u n 4gif wadeva wrongs u haf done. dey will b so mesmerised tt dey wun even care abt ur character. however, even if u've got a gd character, w/o looks, ull b nth... 2 b frank, ppl will often take looks into 1st consideration, b4 character. imagine a dirty n ugly man approaches u, ull try 2 siam as fast as u can rite, u wun even tink of leaving ur phone number behind rite? but if sum1 lyk f4 or jay chou approaches u, 1st reaction will b wanting 2 get 2 noe him rite? it is onli when u've no choice but 2 tok 2 an ugly person den ull find tt he's actualli a nice person but how many such chances will heaven gif?? haha...

well 2day nth particular happen, juz tt went arcade n played e tennis game haha finally passed lvl 3 but lvl 4 is a killer lol benedict is finally being posted 2 do e counter at yoshinoya wahahahhaha but he's much betta den me lo e person hu taught him is not wanqi (vvvv super duper lousy mentor, a person hu cant teach! lousy character oso lousy person la ARGH!) but is another staff n she's far betta lor, printed out e counter stuff 4 him n taught him properly w/o flaring her temper... sianz sia but anyway now can concentrate on revising 2 prep 4 internship next sem... hmm... wonder how will it b lyk...

haah 2day realli nth much 2 write abt.... nth interesting happen... but its abit sad 4 me though... tink stel realli angry tis time... asked me if wanted 2 watch harry potter on wed n i told her wud reply her if i can anot but den i rdy watched it on mon wif benedict den had a fun day n was so tired therefore 4got 2 reply her...den tues, mind was occupied wif e sentosa trip therefore oso 4got 2 reply her....2day at 12am, received her msg sayin 'its already wed n u din reply ha as expected..' haiz... din mean 2 dun reply her de lor... tried explaining but no reply. juz now msg her again n she said 'ha wads dere 2 b angry abt since i rdy noe e ans? anyway im juz an insignificant person so its ok!' haiz... re mao le ta liao... she can go watch wif sum other person anyway, goin out wif me onli disgrace 2 her mah haiyo... sianz... but tinkin abt wad she said, she's insignificant, i dun tink she's fit 2 use tt term... sum1 lyk me den is suitable 4 it, insignificant ha... well though sad but tml will b meetin benedict 2 go arcade tt cheered up a little cos can relax abit again lol
but tts not all lol tokin crap wif pearl's bro is e highlight lol din noe he's so crappy haha kept saying stupid tings lyk his michael alex owen la den her sis is a tiger la (eh shd b tigress ba) haha oso crap back wif him but he kept sayin his sis bad which i dun tink so lor... shd cherish her cos i wan such sis oso mei you haha sad sia well tts it 4 2day n hopefully tml will b a betta day ;)

well felt quite down recently but felt much betta after 2day's trip 2 sentosa haha realli enjoyable =)
i nearly missed out such fun cos din wish 2 go initially due 2 feelin so tired n oso hafta reply lee's email... tokin abt tis qi si wo sia... my cca colleagues will take 4eva 2 reply when asked abt somth sia kaoz... fed up...
slpt til 6 den mei msg, askin me if im goin. i declined at 1st but she msg again. lookin at her msg, 'go leh. pls', suddenly felt tt i shd b dere cos tink she will b upset if i dun go. wanted 2 wear e shirt tt she gaf me as bd present but den i juz wore it e day b4. set off 2 harbour front. saw pearl n cx, dey were standing outside G2000, e place where dong shu hua reported news!! haha dunno whether izit of e dinner she had, mouth so sweet haha 1st ting pearl said was 'wah nice hairstyle' haha ren chou wad hairstyle oso chou la but anyway felt bit happy when she said tt, at least betta den sayin wow ur hair sux! lol her jacket is oso veri nice! ren chio wear wad oso nice lor haha we set off 2 sentosa.
cx treated us but i still feel tt shd b treated instead since its his bd lol but nvm. den we took e bus 2 e chalet where we r supposed 2 meet ps. waited at e lobby. ps brought a cake along n cx gobbled it up, but not e cherry. he offered e cherry 2 me but i declined cos dun realli lyk cherries... kinda taste lyk medicine... yuckz...... after he finished e cake, we went 2 palawan beach.

on e way dere, we met ps's classmates n i noe 2 of em, 1 is hl, a chio gal whom my fren is crazy over n the other is lin jiaqi, whom ill nv 4get cos she spat at me b4!!! haha well not realli spit la is cos tt time i was sayin somth abt t-shirt sizes den she bursts out luffing n her saliva, uncontrollably, landed on my face -_-"" hao er xin!!! ok so when we met ps's classmates, she suddenly called out loudly 'gd eveing sir!' wah liew oso not during parade dun nid call me tt la... so paiseh lor... n so we continued walking 2 palawan beach n found a place 2 settle down. oh ya pearl took off her NICE JACKET n put it on her waist haha her white clothing oso v nice! once again ren chio wear wad oso nice la haha we begun chattin til abt 9 den we took a monorail back.
on e way, pearl asked how 2 pronouce Ficus, cx pronouced it and added chi is rong shu! his chi so li hai sia! (eh... actualli b4 we reach tt stop inside e monorail it was introduced in both eng n chi haha) den pearl asked ps wads a rong shu den she replied Ficus brrr..... suddenly feel so cold haha so we reached e terminal n took a bus back 2 harbour front. fr dere we took bus 30 n went home... tt marks e end of e day... its quite enjoying actualli n it has been sum time we went out 2gather haha ;)

feelin so tired now... actualli dun wish 2 write anyth but scared later e person hu help me do tis blog scold me ar so betta write somth hahaha
watched herry potter wif my fren 2day... wah cant bliff tt all sold out so no choice muz choose 6pm... idle our time away at arcade playin e tennis... wah kao... damn difficult 2 play lor... 2nd round n final round seems so impossible 2 win... aiyo... realli tired liao... cant tink of wad 2 write... 2 summarise, e day is tiring but fun haha n yea wild tots not so much liao hope u oso wun silly gal =P

juz woke up, not willing 2 get up so lie down dere... memories begun flowing back... wonder y dere r still ppl hu will ren zei zuo fu... hmm guess its up 2 em ba... qing zhe zi qing dun nid much clarification

din mean 2 b late but i tink currypuff head tinks tt its my fault oh well so be it... but its not entirely mine alone, wad abt em? hu was e 1 hu made last min changes?? i tot lt wun b goin so i arranged 2 meet in e afternoon, n its cheaper in the afternoon lor, after tt singing we cud haf met lt 4 dinner den walk walk or so but den tis Big juz wanted 2 make changes, pushing e singing 2 e evening n expects me 2 call -_-" HEELLLOOOOO??? if u make changes u shd b calling isnt it?? ok well i admit im partly at fault 2 but once again not entirely. n when i realised currypuff head has already reached, i asked Big n he juz shifted e prob so smoothly 2 me wahahahha shifted e entire fault 2 me! saying i onli suggest mah but u can still wan 2 make it in e afternoon if u wan 2, so wad does tt imply?? my fault rite?? trying 2 orgainise a gathering 2gather is based on gd intention but wad do i get?? nth but blames... ok currypuff head is magnanimous enuff, he said nvm he'll go back home 1st, so we arranged 2 meet later tt day at 7pm. tink tt tis incident stops here? well if its tt easy i wun b writing it down here rite??
after tt i stayed at Big hse til 6 before receiving a sms fr my classmate, askin abt e resume thingy!!! RESUME!!! i totally forgot abt tt lor so i quickly used Big's com 2 do my resume. as its my 1st time writing such thing, i realli dunno where or how 2 start so begun calling my frenz asking em n downloading samples fr sp website... all these takes time n i hafta rack my brain so tt e resume will look gd. so without realising it, e clock ticks n it hits 7. Big was screaming away n so e meeting time was pushed 2 730. ok Big's frenz came n dey were in e living rm watchin tv well 1 of his fren came up 2 help me out n finally its done. ok now is photo taking time...took e pic tried 2 scan into e com... reminder tt Big is still slacking down dere instead of coming up 2 help me~ den all he did was scream n scream, saying time's running out! HHEEELLLLOOOO?? WHAT E FUCK! im already so panicky n he still adds oil 2 fire instead of coming 2 help me fucker u man. ok i dun blame him totally cos im at fault 2... due 2 e situation im in, i forgot 2 call currypuff head 2 tell him we'll b late so 2 meet e target, i anyhow did e resume n i tink it turns out 2 b sucky...
currypuff head called Big but guess wad Big did? he's afraid tt he'll get a scolding n ignored e call, n i mean PURPOSELY IGNORE IT DEN CLAIM TT HE DIN REALISE IT IF CURRYPUFF HEAD ASKED!!! wtf.... 2 b honest, Big cud haf gone 2 meet currypuff head 1st but no he stayed in e hse wif his frenz watching tv in e living rm... -_-" so we took a cab dere n halfway thru e ride currypuff head sms tt he's so pissed off waiting again n left. Big blamed me. well i find tt doin my resume is far more important den goin 2 ktv n im sure every1 will agree bt tis Big juz blame me well ok fine... tried smsing plus calling currypuff head but he ignored ok... let em blame me... im always being blamed if anyth goes wrong anyway... dun1 2 quarrel admit its my fault. happy now? oh ya, did i mention tis happen on 17/4? a day b4 my bd? none of em realised, gathering was not a happy 1, 4get it...

hmm.....life... either u win or u lose, either u get all or nothing

2day's np was not bad.... e ncos can work n i haf no doubt in their ability... but its juz their attitude... dere is no useless person in tis world, onli lazy ppl exists... its all up 2 their mentality whether dey wan 2 do it anot... mistakes r inevitable since tis is onli their 1st parade haha juz keep improving n they will b spared fr all e scoldings... felt quite upset abt e crime prevention test thingy... well i realli find tt dey r at fault as dey shd haf asked if dey dunno somth, not last min den sae. ms leong is kind enuff 2 help out or else we will b in deep shit... hopefully such incident will not happen anymore
hahahaha 1st time saw san san blush lol well hopefully she wun feel offended as i din haf any ill intention juz sae for e fun of it hope she wun take it 2 heart...

felt a sudden urge to listen to jay's 2nd album 2day... brought it out n listened... tt 'tui fei' feeling is exactly how i felt... so sad so helpless... juz wanted to cope myself up... but i cant stand it... kept tinking abt tt matter, e more i tot e lousier i felt... confidant msg haha i told her b4 we cud b confidant but i always feel so guilty cos i seldom tell her clearly wads on my mind lol but tt silly gal still so nice said can show her attitude if i wanted 2 vent my frustrations... well i tink tts wad true frenz r... so glad tt she n her bf r loving each other so deeply lol enjoy watching harry potter 2gather k =)

went 2 arcade wif tis learned man... benedict kwok haha he's quite a nice chap actualli n has wisdom but 2 bad cos of sum actions in his sec sch la den all gals siam him, c him machiam c ghost lidat... -_-"" i tink he's actualli not tt scary as in well many guys r lyk him or even worst wad... but i tink sumtimes he worry 2 much... sianz diao sia... mm mayb cos he's more careful.... as for me, i tink im rash at times... chiong chiong chiong nv tink of consequences... he's quite encouraging actualli if he speak 2 him haha when im not happy or not goin well wif my work, he wud sae preservere, n said abt he purposely get near 2 tis gal hu spread 2 every1 tt he is a pervert... "she scared of me so i purposely get near her" haha den dere's oso tis fren, melisa hu wud oso encourage by saying "if others wan 2 c me die, i wud pian pian live 2 let em c" haha both of em had same concepts on encouraging... i tink tts wad true frenz r 2... unlyk sum fren hu goes round telling he is a true fren but den do 'somth' behind ur back tt upsets u...

msg lyd a wk ago askin got part time job anot n she msg juz now n said "no work la" well i was onli kidding when i said she wun ask 4 me cos i simply noe she wud help me ask cos we are frenz! n i TRUST HER! but i guess she muz haf heard another version... hopefully im wrong....

all alone in e dark again now.... tots r running wild again... soon will b bothered by 'tt' matter again... haiz.... wish human memory can b lyk com files... delete n empty recylce bin....

when u realli luv a person, u will find tt he is an angel to u, any imperfections dun matter as in ur eyes, he is a perfect person... u wun critize or make bad comments abt him behind his back (esp to his frenz)... no matter wad decisions he made, u will stand by him n support his stand...

juz felt so hurt, u did it again, yes...again... tts e 3rd time... u clearly noe i dun lyk but u did it again... sorry is of no use as i haf heard enuff of it...a sorry is meaningless if u dun repent ur mistake... mayb u may feel tis is a minute matter but i juz cant stand it... u din even bother 2 explain after tt ha...ur attitude always made me look tt im in e wrong...well mayb or mayb not... dunno wad else 2 sae now...4get it...hurtzzzzzz
as 4 u, mr big size guy, after hearing ur story on e ktv thingy n ur outing wif tt gal u lyk but it ended up she tokin wif ur fren more, i sympathized u... realli... but not now anymore... i feel tt u deserved it....