hmmm yday went to jp
memory refreshed again when saw bentobox
i dun tink shows are exaggerating afterall
cos u can realli stone dere n memories flow back recalling ur past as though u are still part of it
as though it is realli happening
n u can smile dere while staring at nth cos ur mind is filled wif her tt u dun even noe wad is projecting into ur eyes
yup its sweet but its for a moment onli
soon ull b brought back to reality
haha went to e ntuc den memories again n again
n i cud actualli haf fun looking ard
cos my memories r she's still wif me lookin at e stuffs n givin comments
hmmm mayb i shd watch vanilla sky cos its somth abt a dream haha

r dreams meant to come true or izit juz illusions to keep u goin?
christmas again le but it wudnt b e same anymore
merry xmas

you kao xiang wo?
she me yi si ne
ya i was quite happy n i still hoped tt we wud b together
but i bliff u wudnt wan to le dui ma?
xie xie ni
u brighten up my day
brought hope n colors to my life
hxhn

hmmm australia is realli beautiful
e weather is great for sun tanning
warm but wun perspire
n deres somth v interesting which is when u are under shade u feel cool n outside u feel warm unlike sg no matter under how many shades u will still feel hot
e air is fresh

e ppl dere greet each other 'mike'
so when we 1st went to e canteen we were lyk huh hu r u calling lol
well e trainin is soso

during outfield we were attached to a company
felt quite stress as at times i realli had no idea wad to do but still had to pass down an order
during times when i feel lost i realli wished tt i was in sg so i can msg her n e reply will juz gimme e strength to carry on but too bad...
at nite it feels so cold. u can even wake up due to coldness n shiver till either u try to fall aslp (which is v diff) or shiver till mornin when e sun rises (ard 5am, yup no doubt 5am = to our 8pm?) at times lyk tis i realli cud use a hug...a warm hug
yeah she's on my mind

but its not all tt bad
look up e sky n ull c stars
ull b overwhelmed by e amt
hao duo hao duo hao mei hao mei
den i juz had e urge of being wif her to watch e stars
n i dreamt of if we can juz lead sucha carefree life
how i wish i cud bring her over
its den i come to my senses
come to noe y everyth became lidat
i cant gif her tt kinda life
so its onli gd for her to let go n b wif sum1 hu can realli gif her happiness =)

ya noe? premiership league n s-league is so diff premiership players will nv play in s-league while s-league players wun b able to make it to premiership
if she finds it mian qiang to b together den parting is e onli n best option
i will wait as she sae she nids time tt can b rest assured i will but will she too?

i tot of how we met n fell in luv mayb tt will re-enact but e male lead is diff le?

ok back to australia
drank til i vomitted so giddy e feelin is bad
well at least i noe my frenz r dere

yeah now to R&R
its so fun
bought many many tings lol
e shop assistants dere r realli chio la haha
but of cos not every1 is friendly so r racists n will shout 'fu%k u' as dey drive past
i bet dey dun dare step out of their car to do so as we haf lyk 10 ppl lidat? coward racists

hmmm times flies dere feel so carefree dere la come back lyk so sianz...
e moment touch down i rush over to fren bd party liao haha gou fren bo?
drank alcohol again hmm 1st time drink 40% sia not so bad la juz feel throat n stomach burning lol

yday mp come n raid. knn
stupid rp nv stop em n inform us 1st
dey shd haf stalled em by verifying each n every1
wad if dey are fake? e whole camp will b bombed due to negligence yea?
anyway was caught for possessing of memory stick
juz sianz

den went into e auditorium n i merely let go of e door n it slammed
e mp tot i attitude n e 2LT diao me
knn ccb u
i dare u diao again when we ord la
fuck
damn lao lan
its onli cos of ur vocation if not u r nth man

serving e green is a wrong choice man its lifeless

everyth juz goes wrong
wif so many tings happening i guess any1 will change

met up wif kl he advise me to forget her well its not tt easy yea? its for lifetime
he kept askin n not juz he la is every1. lyk y lidat la hows u n her la

so now tis is my ans n stop asking le it doesnt feel gd yea?
im juz not worthy of her
im too bad
i always dun treat her as well as she treats me
i always make her wait so long for me
its juz me
im not tryin to gain sympathy or wad im juz stating the fact

n as for e q wad i plan to do
its to wait? n wish her luck?
new gals?? haha save it for urselves la bro lol thx

may god bless those who helped n consoled n as for those who gloat over it well dere's always a kharma which i bliff =P

when e world turns their back on u
u turn ur back on em