well its quite sian over at e co now... starting e countdown... mm fri went 2 watch new police story haha not bad la e show den sat went 2 work again its half day... was asked 2 quote the price for e new water features n so i did n pasted e price list next to em. den afternoon went 2 highlight my hair haha since e way it is den mayb treat tis as a form of revolution ba nv bother 2 tink tt much liao chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi lol but sian la i wanted yellow or golden yellow lidat those bright color but e result is golden brown -_-" haiz mon goin work again sianzzzz

haiz.... sibei sianz now... ok... lets start wif e less annoying part. tis mr loh is new 2 our co. 2day juz his 2nd day. he keeps acting as though he's a veteran n ordering me 2 run errands for him. wtf. den tis customer wants discount n i sae no cannot liao rdy discounted, tis mr loh immediately sae can la can la foong u go ask mega. i pretended i din hear him n explain 2 e customer y cannot den he pat on my shoulder n sae can la juz go n ask 1st. fuck man. sibei tulan. wan ask dunno how 2 ask himself izit? 2 old 2 walk a distance? actualli i can gif a discount but cos he kept pestering n annoying me so i decided not 2. but in e end mega came in n still gaf a discount... ha wad can she do? customer n own staff askin her 2 gif discount, if i were her i oso will b pressurized wad. ok nvm abt tt. tt din realli bother me. now is e part tts so fucking annoying me. ha i din even noe i became an advisor instead of ic. tis is lyk 2 mths ago n no1 inform me. haha wad a joke wad a failure m i. juz sms mel n she told me ch is ic n oso ic of e drill com. 1 word, fuck. suan le dunno wad else 2 sae... its my last yr n thruout 7yrs in np, gettin e goh is my dream... mayb im juz lousy? lost all faith in myself mayb im juz... ha rubbish...? dun wanna do anyth rite now im feelin so sianz so sianz... wan blame onli got myself 2 blame.. got another issue but nvm abt tt. double combo landed on me wow feels great huh ha... now im tinkin abt e timesi had in np, those trainings, those fun, those bonds tt we had, basking in e sun, those punishments, those frenz whom i made, those silly yet funny moments... everyth is perfect... life's carefree... life's fun... yes, np rocks. still rem all my squadmates, my frenz... each n every1 of their character... it realli felt lyk a hm 2 me. mayb i shd not b influenced 2 come back as ci. if i had another chance i will choose not 2...lili wanna come back again b ho, 2 suppress sum1 n i told her "do u tink is worth it? if i were u i wun cos he's not worth it not even a worthy opponent. he claims 2 b headhunted, fine mayb its true but so wad he wun make it far he will onli expose his weakness. well u shd realli reconsider ur option.. if u haf e spare time den fine, if not dun.." yea... lili 1 of my pals in np... dere's tis gang of us at tt time... so happy, doin drills 2gather planning camps 2gather kanna scolded 2gather... yes we still keep in contact, every x'mas we will meet up n ton haha its true tt frenz in np r ur real frenz.... those days r gone n dere's no way we can put on our uniform n dril under e sun ever again... all becomes part of my memory... hahaz seems out of pt hmm... lost all fighting spirit... lost lost lost.... lost in myself. dere's no 2nd bez in my dictionary not bez den b e worst ha ha ha ha........

hmm... last wk so fed up. yea...u guess it, its e same issue again. last fri nite mel msg n asked if shitter call me n update me abt e hike. i said no, it will b a miracle if he do so n i can go buy 4D liao. anyway i got used 2 it so tt din bother me til mel mention somth. i tink she's at her limit liao... she started blaming herself n stuff lidat haiz how i wish i was dere, at least dere's sum1 2 share her burden now tt lili is gone. e reason i din confront him n tok tings out is cos if i do so it will onli sour e relationship n cause much unrest among e team. i consider us a team n tt we shd work together, not b a solo kia. ok if wanna b solo, at least haf wad it takes 1st... no substance n try 2 do tings is lyk... haiz... dunno wad 2 sae... national event push 2 ncos when we ask wads done, now tis hike push 2 TO... if lidat den wads e overall coordinator title 4? sit back relax ppl do jobs 4 u? it was suppose 2 b goin 2 sentosa but in e end change 2 wcp. haha? nhss 2 wcp?? i tink tts kinda stupid personally. e reason 4 tt is cos u DIN do any reccee... however i heard tt e hike was quite fun tts gd... at least u earn some credit. BUT if u infuriate mel 1 more time, juz 1 more time i hear her complaining, tts it. i wun care abt whether it will sour relationship or cause e team 2 feel tense, i will tok 2 tt shitter directly. now tt lili is not dere 2 remind me hey mf cool down...i m rash n i noe.
ok enuff 4 tt event. on sat i was walking 2 e bus stop aft work, got a blind man walking in front of me, 4 fear tt i will miss my bus, i overtook him. den aft walking sum distance, dere was a loud horn n screeching sound behind me n my instinct told me dere's trouble so i took a glance behind n 2 my horror e blind man was walking on e road~! behind him was a row of cars. i rush over asap, grab his arm n lead him back 2 e lane. whew wad a close shave... i tink tt place shd install a divider... cos lotsa ppl wif prob seeing walk along tt pathway, i guess cos dere's a school for em sumwhere ard dere... its so dangerous. well xy told me somth hahahaha i tink its a joke cos simply cannot b true. anwyay tink she found sum1 so all e bez~!! =) hmm wanna dye my hair... tot of doin tt... i told mel n her 1st reaction is den how u come back? haha well well well... i asked wads wrong wif dying n she said cos its e rule lol well u noe tt wun convince me. i dun juz follow blindly now i question liao... if rules r stupid, it shd b abolish. no1 has yet convince me y cant dye. u mean u r a pai kia if u dye? no, i dun tink so. juz lyk y a 18 yr old boy can hold a gun n fight in a war but has 2 wait til age of 21 b4 dey can watch R(A) haha sum tings simply dun make sense...its e culture i wud sae... culture mould by our ancestors... hmm gettin 2 far fetched liao lol anyway i tot of y is not advisable 2 dye hair liao so im still pondering whether shd dye anot haha

hmm... e day started off well as i sold a pond worth $1800+ haha tts more den half of the total sales sia lol but dunno y after lunch feel so tired, suddenly feel lyk slping sia... no strength at all. so tok cock tok cock play wif e cat n soon it was 5pm. felt bit hungry so went wif e other attache 2 get sum cup noodles hahaha we had 2 do it sneakily tryin not 2 let ppl noe hmm... muz b cos of 2 much metal gear solid lol den tot everyth is goin fine til we had 2 move pebbles! move em manually onto e lorry! OMG! 73 bags, onli 2 of us n each bag weigh 25kg ARGH! carry til arm so pain... but i tink mind over matters... in e end we did it whew! hope tml wun haf tis kinda ting again liao -_-"

tot 2day can go out 2 get pc components 4 e co but cos no part timers r coming den lack of ppl, in e end hafta stay back 2 help out... so boring~!! dey sae mon den go but i tink last min sure got somth crop up cannot go 1 lor -_-" den ar summore cos lack of ppl den i half day, no1 acc me 2 makan sibei sianz... den tot of goin wif mel dey all. call her but engaged den msg josephine n no reply duh... bo bian go hm play game lor... den on bus xinyi called. she ask wan go out anot den is wif she n sjab de yvonne n i feel so extra so decline.. den yvonne call, both kept asking in e end still decline cos feel v tired... mayb another day??? feel so bad abt declining lor... anyway wan call oso call shuai ge mah shuai ge wif mei nu den nice... call me go ruin e pic onli... haha next time i bring shuai ge go den i siam lol hmm so darn sianz leh muz work again....

1 unhappy event defeats all happiness... haiz...

well on mon is e beginning of a sianz "4-day trip" hmm.... din even wanna go online liao cos dun tink bendan will b able 2 find a cybercafe dere, even if do dun tink will b dere at e time i log on. ok went 2 work as usual n on my way hm tt time i saw chen tian wen, e mediacorp actor. he is muscular but den not as fit as when he is filming e show 'holy monk'

tues oso normal day but den e news reporter of CNA came n did an interview of sum1 (i dunno hu n i dun care). e host i 4got wad name liao.. susan or susanne... argh wadeva, e 1 hu puts on lots makeup 1. but she's gd lookin.
den its time 2 gif my supervisor sign n gimme a grade 4 tis mth... so worried lor... cos he seems annoyed when i din turn up for his bd party last saturday, when not juz any ppl anyhow r being invited. (din turn up all thanks 2 tt 'tian cai' hu din plan anyth ar, we din e cleaning up 4 him til i 4get abt e party) however wad muz come will come so i pluck up my courage n ask him 2 fill in e grading page... he asked again wad i wan him gif but tis time i juz sae anyth lor, gif wad u tink is suitable. hmm... ok la he put a B+ 4 conduct n B+ 4 performance den he ask 'm i suppose 2 write comments?' i was lyk OMG... last time he oso nv ask tis time ask... muz b write bad tings abt me liao...tis is wad he wrote..

'this week is a very busy work-week in the design n build department. we have little use of munfoong as the room is fully packed. consistently, munfoong has displayed courteousness and profeesionalism. his initiative has once again repeated. there are still too much to learn w/o me intended to impart to him in terms of being a team player and b a motivator to the rest of the team'

oh well, dun realli understand wad he is tryin 2 convey but nvm. den i realise he changed e conduct 2 an A. haha ok mayb ill charge him cheaper 4 his website lol
waited.

wed is e 1st time i pon half a day. dun tink any1 noes abt tt.
waited.

haiz... all was doin well til 2day... its so sianz lor... went 2 e company nth 2 do so i go take hose water e plants... wah liew its damn tiring, dun bliff go n try... den i was asked 2 upload somth 2 e website... edited some pics n resize... e sizing part dey dunno how 2 do, as in e pic will b stretched til out of shape or when enlarge it will b blurred, but i did it n i dunno how 2 explain 2 em... so i juz try my bez 2 explain n dey sae icic okok but dunno izit realli dey understand anot. nvm abt tt tink dey will. bendan finally call! i practically stop wad i was doing n rush out 2 e room 2 chat. but i onli said 2 sentence n all i heard was 'du......' haiz... tot will call again but nv... but nvm tml tml will b betta~!! haha hmm... after e web ting i went back 2 e retail office. tis customer at 1st sae wan tis den everyth settle bill printed, change her mind, sae wan tt. sibei troublesome. tts not all, i forgot 2 include e delivery charge n when she saw e bill, she is satisfied cos its within her budget, $400. she wrote a check n handed over. den when she was told abt e delivery charge, her face turn black totally. she was v tulan tt we din state it in e bill n now everyth settled den tell her. tink she tinks we tryin 2 cheat her.. but i din mention 2 her b4 tt dere will b a delivery charge lor... haiz but oso my fault tt i din include inside e bill... mayb she tot it was already inside... though not being scolded directly at but i still feel uneasy... haiz morale so low...
r u back...?

well tink ill juz post 1 every wk 2 summarise everyth... no time 2 write everyday... sianz...

2day's ord 4 e sec4 2004 batch as well as my fren hu's been wif me 7yrs in npcc....time realli flies... i still rem when i ord 3yrs ago tis batch was still little kids hu juz joined npcc n now its their turn 2 leave...npcc realli create lots bondings where u find true frenship hu goes thru thick n thin wif u...v soon it will b my 2nd ord next yr, tis time grad as a CI n it will b my v last ord in my npcc uniform.
when i reached 2day at 9+ i was escorted up n i asked him where e cis r seated n he told me in e front so i went all e way fr e back 2 e front b realise those sitting dere were all TOs omg so paiseh lor so i ask em where r e cis huh n dey pointed upwards. i look above n saw em waving at me haha so went up sit wif em... but it was v boring...cos i sat at e corner n e 1 beside me is not a ci anymore n i dun haf much 2 tok 2 him abt so i juz kept quiet most of e time n e worst ting is tt e concert is oso quite boring, as in e cadets ai mai ai mai lidat...wan dance dun dance type... it feels more lyk listening 2 e songs being played lor... later came my ex squadmate n she sat beside me, at e time when lili is giving e speech haha she kept asking hu is tis cadet name la tt cadet name la wads tis badge la... haiyo bth... wan 2 listen 2 e speeches n plays oso cannot listen peacefully...haha den it was frenship dance n i tink it has always been v boring lor... lyk bunch of idiots anyhow dance... i tink tis needs a coordinator n plan wad 2 sing followed by wad n wad so we wun b lyk get lost along e way mah... but e event is still not bad overall haha keep it up guys!

everyth is fine til tis event happen. KAOZ FUCK MAN i cant bliff such a ting wil happen in nhss lor! i nearly wanted 2 call e police sia. tis is criminal case! but wad disappoint me most is e reaction of tt 2 ncos. dey actualli din stop him n luff instead. do dey noe wads righteousness? i dun tink so... dey r afraid of a hooligan?? so much so tt dey r not even willing 2 help their very own squadmate?? WTF! i understand how e victim feels, though i told him 2 cool down but if i was him i tink a punch wud haf rdy landed on 1 of e 2 buggers hu r unwilling 2 reveal e truth! CCB sia cum KNN wad r frenz 4? 2 b together when dere's fun n siam til nowhere when dere's trouble?? mr foo came n realli scolded tt hooligan cum pervert... tis is when i start 2 idolise tis mr foo sia wohhooooooo he rockx man! his way of scolding way of handling tings his speech is realli an eye opener 4 me sia... i din noe he will do tt haha fr these i knew he's a leader. i wun forget wad he said, dun fool wif mr foo; ni zhi dao wo lai zhe li zuo she me ma, wo shi lai zhe li SHAO DI DE! BA NI MEN ZHE XIE HUAI XUE SHENG SHAO CHU NAN HUA! wahahaha he is realli gd im speechless. i decided 2 idolise him fr now on liao lol
hmm...but i oso fear e safety of tt 2 guys cos in e end dey still reveal e truth....hopefully e hooligan wun create more trouble or i tink those whips landed on him will not b done by e sch but in e prison...im sure every1 is gd by nature...juz lack tt guidance...

well aft tt incident we got another headache prob. national event... i tot 7788 liao but its not lor not even 3344... kaoz wad e fuck is ci in charge doin?? leave everyth 2 ncos but do e ncos noe wad 2 do in e 1st place?? kaoz... national event leh n 2 VIP r coming lor n its lidat... so me, mel, josephine n yumei went 2 kfc in clementi n plan out every detail...we did all e way til 11pm... mel call tt cheater(a new nick intro by.... haha cant sae) n told him we plan out all details liao n guess wad he said, 'can pls inform me 1st next time, discuss it wif me' in an angry tone. i realli feel lyk smacking him sia kaoz in e 1st place did he inform us abt anyth?? no lor he lian fang ge pi oso no haf lor. pls reflect on urself 1st ok? next is tt he kept sayin he not free having exams. if tts e case den tell us la y wan keep holdin onto e national event? so tt people will tink u deserve e credit 4 success?? NO WAY! i tell u if we din plan out it will fail lor kaoz... discuss wif u got use meh? no lor. if u reali care u wud stay back wif us 2day or at least inform us abt e latest updates lor but u din. now u r making noise. f man. u wanted power n fame n yes mayb in front of e cadets u had em but not us. given u chances but u cant prove urself. disappointing