well... saw her bez fren's blog by chance... mayb i got overboard wif my previous previous entry by insulting sum1...well guess tis is e 1st time i apologise 2 sum1 haha yeah i got 2 hot headed.... dunno if any1 will understand tt feelin but it juz got into me... hmmm... 2 b honest few ppl noe of tis blog n i tink no1 reads now (cos ive always kept tis blog n onli few reads it but aft some time of no entries uploaded i tink no1 reads alrdy?) so i tot it will b alrite 2 vent abit of my frustrations down here but guess i was wrong eh?
abt e pointing part, i dunno if any1 will bliff, it is cos my fren wanna play e ddr so i juz pointed. n hey i make myself clear 1st, i din not pt wif 1 or 2 fingers but is lyk those kind 'hey u wanna play tt' kinda gesture. den e lookin part was cos... well... u did tt expression 1st? so wad u expect me 2 do? smile back? hehehe? omg im sure u wun either rite? well now tinkin back i realli shdnt haf juz lost my composure n shoot out lidat...
hmm.... i can delete e entry but will tt help? nah... 1 has 2 face e prob instead of running away. so ill keep my entry as evidence of my imprudence and sincerely apologise here. its my fault i went 2 2 2 2 far by insulting u.

sorrie dude din mean tt

omg damn frustrating... wad i wrote was juz deleted argh....

well 1st of all happy tt i got 95 4 my life sci test haha 4 e 1st time nv cock up lor... but den overall onli got 76.5/90... bit disappointed...if plus my participation marks can get an A but den i wan distinction haha yeah im so greedy lol how i wish can get another dist lor

oh...how i wish how i wish how i wish how i wish how i wish how i wish how i wish how i wish!!!

haha din noe my sis completed her degree course liao sia lol she studied 4 2 yrs le overseas... strange huh u muz b tinkin overseas n i din noe? lol well e funny ting is she studied in sin lor n onli went 2 perth 4 2 wks (which i tot she is goin 4 a holiday) hahaha no wonder last time she always fight wif me over e com... so is 2 do her proj lol wah sianz leh.... wad 2 do... i cant c my future... dunno wad will i b... hmm...

deng wo ok

well felt so sianz... seems lyk most of my frenz r goin 2 e U.... while im lyk still hanging ard?? haha i do haf my own dreams... 2 b a cop (this is all along my ambition since young) n den i oso aspired 2 b a psychology, mayb due 2 my frenz influence ba n furthermore tink psychiatrist r cool~ tt cud b due 2 movies lol oh ya still got 1 more ambition, which is to study media tech n mayb get a job on animation or stuff lidat, lol this ambition is due 2 1 of my module in poly. it realli attracts me n 4 e 1st time i enjoy goin 4 lessons haha oh ya e lecturer look lyk meiluan lol hmmm... well... i tink these r dreams... how 2 go abt pursuing em.... when i dun haf a degree... haiz hu 2 blame but myself for not studyin... sibei sianz now... tot tis sem will get gd results but well csb started off well n i tot i cud aim 4 a dist until i got my 2nd results back n... dey were shit. can get a B happy liao... den it was fyp... teacher sae phase 1 not v gd hmmm... guess it will b another B? haha as 4 mcom dun tok abt it. 1st test result lyk shit liao... can get C or mayb a pass muz amitabah liao... so all left was life sci... dun tink will do well 2 since fr my past exp i always cockup last min... haiyo... tot will get a dist n 2 As tis sem but now it seems impossible... sianz... haiz back 2 my life sci liao... though i noe studyin oso wun help me now.

god can gif me a reborn a new life!?!

dere's 1 ting she dunno.... n i dun intend 2 tell her anyway cos she wun bliff... she'll juz tink i make tt up out of jealousy... well he snub at me, hmm is tt e rite word? he diao me ha tt si tor eh lump of shit.... so irritating. dances lyk a zombie look lyk a shit. yet he diao me n e face he gave me was lyk tellin me 'hey boy ill trample on u, im e winner' wah kaoz dere's a jian xiao on his face lor i dunno how 2 desc. mayb looks somth lyk tis?? >=)
wah lan eh totally look lyk an evil person. shitty hole is nth compared 2 him sia... e 1st impression is not gd. even though she says his a gd person. ha but i doubt so... he looks lyk a hyprocrite hu puts on a mask when in front of her but reveal his true evilish char when no1 he knows is ard. ya i dun tink e whole world will bliff me. dey will view him as a v nice person. well if so will i kanna snub at? ha nvm dun tink he will admit dun tink any1 will bliff me. even if he does im pretty sure he can find an excuse wif his sweet talk n in e end i will still b regarded as xiang tai duo or being ridiculous or xiao ren zhi xin du jun zi zhi fu. so rather keep tis 2 me n my blog. anyway i bliff time will tell n i hope it wun take 2 long 4 her 2 c his fox tail.
fucking malay pig. tor. machiam sai. POS!

im goin crazy now yes i am. my heart is shattered into tiny bits... ya i may haf got used 2 it but tis time is deeper den b4 much deeper. m i so worthless in ur eyes? i tot i hold an important place but apparently from wad ur reply i dun...i cant even hold a candle 2 em....how can i take it? tears roll down uncontrollably heart aching which i tink no amount of anaesthetic can stop it... u dunno how much ive been thru...i chose not 2 tell, not even 2 a single soul so that u r kept in e dark, u wun noe how hurt i am.... n that if any quarrels occur i will appear 2 b e 1 in e wrong so that u can get all the consoles which i hope will make u feel better.... as long as u r happy im fine wif it realli.... ive put up wif everyth...my lvl of tolerance is so high now tt wadeva unreasonable behaviour i can put up wif already....but im still a human n deres always a limit 2 my tolerance... i realli nid sum1 2 tok 2 or ill juz go bonkers... but hu? no1 except tis blog.... im a loner.... wadeva grievances i can onli stomach em up..listening 2 wei yi se cai now its a nice song...n describes well...waitin 4 ur reply...do u care...can u care...juz a little bit??

Love is to gif sum1 your heart to break it but trusting her not to.... *hugz*