hmmm... facing a dilemma... is between do i wan to continue wif e knee injury or go out of course...
sianz... both r tough choices...
if i chose to go out of course, yes in future my knee recovers i wun haf any regrets but i will miss out e fun wif my current course mates, yea onli e 5 of us but im comfortable n kinda lyk e bonding.
if i chose to carry on wif e injury in future i may regret lyk when im old or wadeva my knee will ache or dunno wad happen, im sure i will regret... but i get to complete e course wif my buddies...
haiz... i dunno wad to do... she's not here... haiz
tell me which is e right path

hmmm tml will b e start of a new phase liao... heard it will b v tough. ya i tink so too... hmm...
went to c e specialist on fri. my knee cap is totally ruined cos i nv haf a proper rest n e muscle holdin e knee cap has not recovered. he says tt my knee cap will keep slipping if i keep doin strenous exercises. tio meh by him. he recommended me to physiotherapist. was told to hand in e letter to e MO. hmmm...wonder wad will happen.

gd life has ended liao tough trainin awaits

hmmm... 1st wk was bad... my knee hurts even after onli ippt test... den e running next day totally worsened... walking will feel e pain... omg wad is happening? izit my imagination or it realli gone bad? haha
well as usual got e days back in bmt feelin haha pull ups n push ups my arms are aching but i can take it haha mayb mentality changed le ba its trainin n its realli necessary since e weapons r gonna b v heavy

life... not much of a choice if given den make a gd 1

well... cant realli rem everyth tt happen during my trainin in sispec le... all i can sae is its juz lyk heaven, so relax so many nights out so gd... durin section trainin its a miracle i nv dislocate again, den dere's live firing haha i held e saw n juz shoot n shoot v shuang haha but oso quite dangerous since we muz move forward while firing... hmmmm den got advance obstacle course we had to climb n jump down from a 3m high wall hmmm...quite challenging. oso got jump down from 5m platform n onto e canvas spread out tautly by e other course mates. tt is quite scary i still rem when i was midway i was tinkin y so long still hafen land haha den got firefox tt is fun haha
mmm e confidence rm i tink its redundant. u hafta wear gas mask n go into a rm whereby tear gas will b released den u hafta take off ur mask n sae out ur rank ic n name. i mean, e whole ting is juz wan us haf a taste of how izit lyk but wads e rationale? does doin tis make u immune to e tear gas in future? dun tink so rite. takin off e mask doesnt realli prep u for it ba? mayb mentally but not physically so u still will go thru e pain rite. sumtimes somethings juz dun make sense...

anyway sispec is over le... now is a new chapter of my life... air defence artillery... haiz...
y so unlucky... how do dey pick ppl for these vocations? ppl ard me hu r fit n strong got those slack unit n ppl wif injuries muz go chiong n undergo tough trainin... im not complainin cos of tough trainin but it juz doesnt realli make sense...my other fren oso had injury, dislocated arm many times before n dey now wan him carry big missiles heavy weapons... i realli tink it doesnt make any sense at all... mayb i dun make sense at all.. we r all living in a senseless world

tml is pearlie bd so happy bd~