well woke up early today juz to make breakfast for her
it is meant to b a surprise but it always fail
it is meant to fulfil my promise of making breakfast as well as to let her noe she meant alot so dun bother abt e showing up of whoever k
finally brought to her but wow? guess wad? i was snubbed instead.
haha
ok 2nd time i hear tis 'i dun lyk surprises'
shall bear tt in mind.
i juz deserve all tis for being forgetful
its meant to b a surprise
but problem always arise
i feel so bad so so so bad for letting her cry
i actualli made such a cute gal tear
omg...
also i blame myself for being so forgetgful
this prob... i noe it existed for quite a long time... i noe myself...
being forgetful
i cant help it
forgive me
how can i stop hurting her?
it hurts me too
another serious prob i noe abt myself is that...
well i dunno how to put it
i juz haf tis...tis mentality of wanting n not wanting.
i dunno how to put it
its lyk two minds fighting against each other n either wins e other will feel unhappy
i onli feel lyk tis when we quarrel or when im upset
i dunno y tried to curb it but its quite difficult...
i hafta stop hurting her lyk tis
i realli luv her
if i remain a distance from her i wun hurt her le
dui ma?
i cant sae tings lyk not wanting to c her at all cos all i wanna c is her
i cant sae tings lyk dun1 b wif her cos all i wan is b by her side
hao mao dun
im so stupid
beauty n e beast dun exist its juz a fairytale to gif kids sumting to look forward to
dui bu qi wo ai ni
ke yi bu yao zai nan guo le ma
ke yi xiang ji tian qian na me en ai ma
*hugz*
hmmm well dunno happy anot la cos tml i will b spending e day in camp...sianz... last yr oso
last yr is as a trainee so no bd off den this yr oso sumwhat same reason la cos of a course but me as instructor so cannot go off
wth wth
can i ord sooner?
anyway tt doesnt matter cos she spent 3 days wif me!!! haha
we went shopping n shopping
had so much fun la
felt upset for her cos her fav bag no more le...
if any1 has news abt a bag wif a lock sold in maryjane at vivocity can msg me??
ya e desc is so insufficient rite? but tts all i noe le
hmmm 2day shop for food to cook lol
well i hafen realli inherited my dad's genes in cooking but well... its not so bad rite??
hor hor?? haha
wanted cook spag but end up in maggie instead heh heh
if not i tink it will b worse lor
but i realli lyk it except tt im not v hungry
e food is nice cos we cook de mah lol
den its e moment....
MY PRESENT!!!
haha it consists of a photo frame n a shirt
e photo is nice taken recently de n e frame is great too cos she stick e decoratives herself de
(although in e end she placed e pic upside down) =P
E SHIRT!!! ITS PINKISH!!!
i realli cudnt bliff my eyes at 1st man
cos she dun realli lyk pink n now she bought a pink shirt
lol i tot she meant a prank
but nope it is meant for me
cant bliff it...
tried on le n yup its nice
i nv c myself wearing a pink shirt
but e shirt is nice so i dun mind
LAOPO XIEXIE NI!!!
*HUGZ*
birthday soon le
happy bday to me!!!
ps: e cake is nice i lyk it but im realli too full to finish it le
haha thanks for everyth
e card reads everyday is vday n bday
yup tts true =)
everyday is our day
Look in ur eyes i see Our happy memories Value the time with you and i see Eternity
mayb its betta if i dun wander ard, stay at hm, slp, dun tink abt anyth or juz stay in
its betta if i can haf selective sights or memory, choosing wad to see n wad to remember....
den i wun feel as bad as im feelin now....
ya mayb e time given is not wad i tot but is for sum tings to fade away
alrite
it cud haf been a happy day 2day
but not anymore dun tink it will b in future either
nid 2 anaesthesia myself
tink ill b goin chiong wif my frenz later
haf fun man!
forget forget forget everyth!
hmmm long time nv blog
life's still e same - empty
deres 1 day when i was on e bus tis figure came up n sat in front
its quite late le nearly 12
den we got off together at yishun mrt station n its ky!
lol surprised n e more surprising ting is tt she specially gone dere to deliver a present for her bf! its his bd haha den i tot to myself wow so sweet la
n tot further back when ben dan is still wif me, she's as sweet too
doin tings tt will surprise me n yet so sweet haha
life has nv been as colourful as it has been den...
its rainin tt nite juz lyk my mood
hmmm den abt 2 wks ago angered her again.
but den its true tt dere's sum1 lyk her mah
juz tt nv sae its still me hmmm....
mayb still got summore? =x
recently....deres pke test
dun wish to mention any further
juz study n u wun find it a prob le
so lyk stop sayin top scholar top scholar okok?
now is for games... dota!!
haha i tink our teamwork is getting betta le
yday we 4v4 thrash em till lyk yea quite badly
2day dey got 1 pro
5v5
1st game we win but not as gd as yday its a narrow margin
2nd game we were quite sianz no mood play cos 1 of us gotta do guard duty tml n its so last min informed... sianz
totally cant fight back
we lost quite badly in terms of kills n deaths
3rd match we fought back haha 2 bad time's up so gotta go but quite obvious we did betta haha its so fun
mayb i shd try playin cs now... hmmm.... lolx
hxhhxhhxhn =)
hmmm yday went to jp
memory refreshed again when saw bentobox
i dun tink shows are exaggerating afterall
cos u can realli stone dere n memories flow back recalling ur past as though u are still part of it
as though it is realli happening
n u can smile dere while staring at nth cos ur mind is filled wif her tt u dun even noe wad is projecting into ur eyes
yup its sweet but its for a moment onli
soon ull b brought back to reality
haha went to e ntuc den memories again n again
n i cud actualli haf fun looking ard
cos my memories r she's still wif me lookin at e stuffs n givin comments
hmmm mayb i shd watch vanilla sky cos its somth abt a dream haha
r dreams meant to come true or izit juz illusions to keep u goin?
christmas again le but it wudnt b e same anymore
merry xmas
